Afraid of Home?

What was your first thought when you read the title? Did you frown with a confused look? Did you somehow connect and relate to it? What is your first thought when reading a shocking title? I would be very interested in that.

Frankly, I have put in that way to get your attention. Normally, if I had meant it as a normal question, I would have written “Am I Afraid of My New Home?”. Because I have just moved. Moved out of my former home in the little Austrian valley, with 5.000 inhabitants, where I had spent the last 9 years of my life. Now moved to a new city, a new study, a new life in one of my capitals, Vienna. My mother is supporting me on every step of the way, she has my back, and I am forever grateful that she does and that she is willing to see me shine whilst living my biggest dreams. I have waited for the moment to move into the wide world out there for years.

My life has completely changed, from one day to the other my comfort zone has vanished – if I even had one 😉 Starting this new chapter in an unknown environment, all by myself, the question came to my mind: Am I afraid?

But I had no answer. Even now, three weeks since I have moved, I cannot find a reason why I should be afraid. I am facing many challenges, of course. But none scares me. On the other hand, I was not rejoiced to move to a place where I knew nobody and to start a university course taught exclusively in English. I had my doubts and my thoughts, but I never had my fears.

I noticed that I was ready. I was ready to unfold my identity in an international environment where nobody knew me and where nobody would judge me if I introduced myself as “French-Austrian“. I was ready to give up the warmth of a familiar home – literally in this sense, a home where you are surrounded by loving family -, and put myself out there. Facing the cold, but with a warm heart.

And just one week after settling in, starting the courses and already forming friendships with wonderful people and creating joyful memories, I witnessed a magnifying sunset from my room. And in that moment I knew that I had made just the right decision, moving to Vienna and starting my life here. I knew that I would never have a reason to be afraid, and that everything turns out good in the end, no matter where I am.

I am more than looking forward to the next three years here, at least. I have nothing to be afraid of as long as you keep a positive mindset and you are accepting the challenge with curiosity and ambition.

Here is to creating a new home, with no fears.

1 Comment

  1. Honnetement, on dirait que vous voulez dire quelque chose a quelqu´un. Je pensais la meme chose quand je lis “Homelessness”. Votre Blog est genial et profond !!!


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